The website was taken and corrupted from a creator who left the website dormant, and either gave the domain to a mod who was strick on the forums I was on at the time of 2014, when I was about ten or nine years old. I was upset and bummed out that you had to be 13 to join the online community.
The website had games or portfolios, and the majority of the site was forum-community related.
When I first checkout the rest of the site after playing a game. The first forum I was was of a girl who stated she saw her having an unhealy relationship with one of the mods or staff members and because one of the creators left and one beloved admin of the site, being either inactive or gone.
The website was in torment, and becoming dysfunctional. And falling apart it was becoming inactive all together.
The website reminds in my mind, a memory. A place that doesn't seem more real as time passes by, a time the doesn't exist.
A place where only I can remember a time to.
Does it even matter anymore?
Why does it even matter.
I don't even care about them, it's just a place where I come back to.. to be in a past self version of my age and time.
A time where I was younger and happy, a time just before my best friend left to another school far out of town, far away in a city.
She ignores me now, today. But, it's fine. I am just alone.
But when I am in that sad alone childlike state I throw out all my focus on the world and just look at textures or bugs on the floor or the dirt.
And am intruage how things work like how or why I even see things and why things are even real.
I feel that in relation to the games that I played on the site,
A game where it's a room-room type of isometric puzzle game.
I just want to have an archive of the website or the games themselves.
(Somebody referred to this site, that might be the one I remember.)
But the backgrounds aren't what I remember.
At one point in 2016 you could change the backgrounds.
Because I recall it being dark purple or pink.
The whole site was just html, but this has stuff.
The indie dev site I was on was mostly a black background.
With some textures or the forums being a light brown beige.
And I was left to look at it's marvelous setup.
I didn't know what the woman said on the forum at the time because I was 10 and thought what she said was crazy and nonsense or "made up drama" basically gossip. Something that takes the pain to just to listen to or look at. That how I experienced the website at the time.
And I saw hatred against the mod with a pfp of a guy with black sunglasses or shades.
He was really strict and mean overall on the main forums on the website.
Don't know if I should of been around that drama on this website at the time, or even on/apart of the website.
I really want a place where I feel alone yet everywhere at once again.
How the internet use to be, a place where you felt so alone yet having friends from around the world.
This was one of the images on the site, (someones games that I played) (drawn or recreated from memory)
